not a love story

I took a breath and skipped a heartbeat,
I shook my head, told myself I’m happy,
I took your words to believe I couldn’t,
I said I was going when I knew I wouldn’t.

I kept you close even though you weren’t
I held your hand while I was dreaming,
And even though I knew I couldn’t,
In you I kept believing.

Kicked down another wall,
Still not even half way
Wish it wasn’t that out of reach,
I don’t even want to stay.

Far from here and from reality,
My dream keeps me awake at night,
Kept heart-locked, mind-fucked,
Sanity so out of sight.

So I took a step back and tried to figure,
What time would lead us to,
Done this just to realize,
There’s no us, just me and you.